1 00:01:28,610 --> 00:01:31,047 The Words, 2 00:01:31,178 --> 00:01:32,440 by me. 3 00:01:35,921 --> 00:01:38,228 "The old man stood in the rain. 4 00:01:41,753 --> 00:01:48,020 "He watched as Rory and Dora Jansen made their way to the limo. 5 00:01:48,151 --> 00:01:51,459 Somehow it seemed as if the raindrops missed them." 6 00:01:51,589 --> 00:01:53,591 - Thank you. - Good night. 7 00:02:27,364 --> 00:02:31,760 No, no, tell Mom not to worry. Look, we just want her to feel better, okay? 8 00:02:31,890 --> 00:02:33,936 All right? 9 00:02:34,066 --> 00:02:36,547 Yeah. No, no. She brought her camera. They're gonna take a lot of pictures. 10 00:02:36,678 --> 00:02:39,507 There's a lot of photographers there. It's an event, Dad. 11 00:02:39,637 --> 00:02:41,813 Okay, all right, we got-- Yes, yes. 12 00:02:41,944 --> 00:02:43,859 - We love you too. - Love you, Chuckles. 13 00:02:43,989 --> 00:02:45,817 Bye. 14 00:02:47,210 --> 00:02:49,430 My parents are very excited. 15 00:02:49,560 --> 00:02:52,346 And they love you very much. 16 00:02:52,476 --> 00:02:55,305 Are you excited? 17 00:02:55,436 --> 00:02:58,265 Yeah, sure, it's a big night, right? 18 00:02:58,395 --> 00:03:00,484 It's a big honor. 19 00:03:02,399 --> 00:03:04,662 Baby, it's-- You're just nervous. It's normal. 20 00:03:04,793 --> 00:03:06,925 I'm just a little overwhelmed, you know? 21 00:03:07,056 --> 00:03:09,450 I didn't expect any of this. 22 00:03:13,410 --> 00:03:16,500 Where are you? Hm? 23 00:03:22,811 --> 00:03:26,945 It was supposed to be a little book, you know? 24 00:03:27,076 --> 00:03:29,078 I know. 25 00:03:33,213 --> 00:03:36,781 The Window Tears has introduced us to the one of the most exciting 26 00:03:36,912 --> 00:03:38,783 and sensitive young writers 27 00:03:38,914 --> 00:03:42,004 to appear on the literary horizon in a very long time. 28 00:03:42,134 --> 00:03:44,789 We are privileged to have with us here tonight 29 00:03:44,920 --> 00:03:49,838 the winner of this year's American Fellowship of Arts and Letters Award, 30 00:03:49,968 --> 00:03:52,406 Mr. Rory Jansen. 31 00:04:09,074 --> 00:04:10,902 Thank you. 32 00:04:24,612 --> 00:04:27,571 I simply tried to set down the truth as I imagined it. 33 00:04:27,702 --> 00:04:31,358 The story of one man, his wife and child. 34 00:04:31,488 --> 00:04:36,276 I never thought a little book like this would affect so many different people. 35 00:04:36,406 --> 00:04:39,191 I only wish I had an idea for my second book. 36 00:04:40,932 --> 00:04:43,065 Anyway, I don't want to take up any more of your time tonight. 37 00:04:43,195 --> 00:04:44,762 I'll just end by saying 38 00:04:44,893 --> 00:04:48,984 that the honor this evening is truly all mine. Thank you. 39 00:05:18,579 --> 00:05:22,104 "Right after college, they moved to Brooklyn. 40 00:05:22,234 --> 00:05:26,195 "They found a first floor loft in an old factory. 41 00:05:26,326 --> 00:05:30,982 "It was five years before the book and the awards, 42 00:05:31,113 --> 00:05:34,725 but Rory already knew what his life was supposed to look like." 43 00:05:34,856 --> 00:05:36,814 - Okay, here? - Yeah. 44 00:05:36,945 --> 00:05:39,382 - Let it go. - Just let go? 45 00:05:49,479 --> 00:05:50,567 Dora? 46 00:05:51,960 --> 00:05:54,745 You're gonna drop me. 47 00:06:05,669 --> 00:06:08,455 Okay, I think we should put pictures up there. 48 00:06:08,585 --> 00:06:10,152 Mm-hmm. 49 00:06:10,282 --> 00:06:15,157 And I think your desk is fine where it's at over there. 50 00:06:19,727 --> 00:06:21,859 And I think we should paint the bathroom pink. 51 00:06:21,990 --> 00:06:24,949 Never. 52 00:06:25,080 --> 00:06:30,607 "A young, struggling writer, fighting to make his voice heard." 53 00:06:35,569 --> 00:06:37,788 - How much is it? - " He loved her." 54 00:06:41,531 --> 00:06:42,880 Oh. 55 00:06:43,011 --> 00:06:44,447 It matches my eyes, babe. What do you want me to do? 56 00:06:44,578 --> 00:06:47,363 " He loved New York." 57 00:06:49,017 --> 00:06:52,803 "But at night, when the city was finally quiet, 58 00:06:52,934 --> 00:06:54,501 he wrote." 59 00:06:57,808 --> 00:06:59,636 Thanks, babe. 60 00:07:02,683 --> 00:07:04,946 Just doing a final pass. 61 00:07:05,076 --> 00:07:06,817 And then what? 62 00:07:06,948 --> 00:07:11,561 And then I'm gonna head into an agent that Professor Waller recommended. 63 00:07:11,692 --> 00:07:13,563 And then what? 64 00:07:13,694 --> 00:07:14,825 And then we're gonna celebrate. 65 00:07:16,523 --> 00:07:17,959 But we don't have any money. 66 00:07:18,089 --> 00:07:20,962 Shh. Then we're gonna celebrate. 67 00:07:21,092 --> 00:07:23,443 Just gotta finish this. 68 00:07:26,010 --> 00:07:27,185 - Babe. - Mm? 69 00:07:27,316 --> 00:07:29,013 Babe. 70 00:07:29,144 --> 00:07:32,234 Babe. Come on, I gotta finish this. 71 00:07:32,364 --> 00:07:36,238 - Okay, I gotta finish this. - Fine. 72 00:07:37,282 --> 00:07:39,459 But you're missing out. 73 00:07:50,078 --> 00:07:52,167 Finished. 74 00:07:52,297 --> 00:07:54,865 Well, if he doesn't want to do it, he doesn't want to do it. 75 00:07:54,996 --> 00:07:58,347 Listen, I said I'll try. 76 00:07:58,478 --> 00:08:01,132 What do you mean? Of course that's my word. 77 00:08:04,092 --> 00:08:06,442 Listen, I gotta know by Wednesday, because that's when I place the orders, alright? 78 00:08:06,573 --> 00:08:08,836 - I'll call you back. Goodbye. - Working hard? 79 00:08:08,966 --> 00:08:10,881 All I do is put out fires. It never stops. 80 00:08:11,012 --> 00:08:15,407 Listen, I know you're busy, so, uh, I'm gonna come at you straight, okay? 81 00:08:15,538 --> 00:08:17,497 Let's go into my office. 82 00:08:17,627 --> 00:08:18,846 How much? 83 00:08:18,976 --> 00:08:21,239 Just enough for the next month to cover us. 84 00:08:21,370 --> 00:08:24,591 And then what? You show up again here next month? 85 00:08:24,721 --> 00:08:26,854 No. I got my book into an agent who says it's got potential. 86 00:08:26,984 --> 00:08:28,899 Rory, did they give you any money? 87 00:08:29,030 --> 00:08:32,599 No, but look, Dad, it doesn't work like that. It's not like your business, okay? 88 00:08:32,729 --> 00:08:35,210 It's not like you do work, you get paid for it, okay? 89 00:08:35,340 --> 00:08:39,954 - I gotta pay my dues. - No, I gotta pay your dues, right? 90 00:08:40,084 --> 00:08:43,218 Look, I wouldn't ask you if I didn't need it. 91 00:08:43,348 --> 00:08:45,612 You think I like coming down here like this? 92 00:08:45,742 --> 00:08:48,484 You think I like saying no? 93 00:08:48,615 --> 00:08:51,356 I feel like I'm hurting you more than helping you. 94 00:08:51,487 --> 00:08:53,620 You gotta start taking responsibility for your life. 95 00:08:53,750 --> 00:08:55,578 I've been taking responsibility for my life. 96 00:08:55,709 --> 00:08:57,885 I've had a job since I was 15 years old. I worked at Alexander's. 97 00:08:58,015 --> 00:09:00,148 I was a busboy. Okay, we decided two years ago 98 00:09:00,278 --> 00:09:02,411 that I was gonna dedicate myself to being a writer. 99 00:09:02,542 --> 00:09:04,544 We had this conversation in the living room, Dad. 100 00:09:04,674 --> 00:09:07,416 - Mom was right there. She agreed-- - But, Rory, it's been a while. 101 00:09:07,547 --> 00:09:09,679 Okay? So maybe now this should be a hobby 102 00:09:09,810 --> 00:09:11,812 instead of a profession until you get your feet on the ground. 103 00:09:11,942 --> 00:09:13,770 Well, thanks for the encouragement, Pop. 104 00:09:13,901 --> 00:09:15,772 - What about Dora? - What about Dora? 105 00:09:15,903 --> 00:09:19,863 Well, I mean, you got to have money before you get married. 106 00:09:19,994 --> 00:09:22,953 You know what? I'm sorry I wasted your time. 107 00:09:23,084 --> 00:09:26,435 Come here! Hey, sit down! Sit down. 108 00:09:26,566 --> 00:09:28,959 Talking about marriage...? 109 00:09:32,746 --> 00:09:34,182 What are you, 11? 110 00:09:43,670 --> 00:09:45,933 This is the last time. 111 00:09:46,063 --> 00:09:49,371 You gotta get a job, something steady, support yourself. 112 00:09:49,501 --> 00:09:52,722 That's just part of being a man. 113 00:09:54,811 --> 00:09:57,335 I'm trying to be a man, Dad. 114 00:09:59,076 --> 00:10:00,904 Another part of being a man, 115 00:10:01,035 --> 00:10:05,996 no matter how painful it might be, is accepting your own limitations. 116 00:10:08,129 --> 00:10:09,609 Come here. 117 00:10:13,134 --> 00:10:16,050 - I love you. - I love you. 118 00:10:17,486 --> 00:10:20,141 - I'm gonna pay you back, you know. - Yeah. 119 00:10:20,271 --> 00:10:23,666 Yeah. Hey, you can always work here. 120 00:10:24,885 --> 00:10:28,453 Ha-ha. We'd kill each other. 121 00:10:28,584 --> 00:10:30,455 "He continued to write, 122 00:10:30,586 --> 00:10:33,241 "believing he had a story to tell. 123 00:10:33,371 --> 00:10:36,461 "He sent his work anywhere they might publish him. 124 00:10:36,592 --> 00:10:40,640 "But all he heard back was rejection, disinterest, 125 00:10:40,770 --> 00:10:43,164 "or the loudest sound of all: 126 00:10:43,294 --> 00:10:44,774 Silence." 127 00:10:46,689 --> 00:10:52,695 "Finally, Rory Jansen was forced to take a day job. 128 00:10:52,826 --> 00:10:55,829 "He found a position at one of the biggest publishing houses 129 00:10:55,959 --> 00:10:58,832 in New York, hoping to make some connections." 130 00:10:58,962 --> 00:11:00,877 I made a million connections around here. 131 00:11:01,008 --> 00:11:02,662 - What, you're a writer? - Yeah. 132 00:11:02,792 --> 00:11:05,752 I got all my stuff into different agents around here. 133 00:11:05,882 --> 00:11:08,450 I'm actually glad it's taking me a while to break through. 134 00:11:08,580 --> 00:11:13,324 It's given me a chance to develop my style, you know, understand the market. 135 00:11:13,455 --> 00:11:15,936 So, what kind of stuff do you write? 136 00:11:16,066 --> 00:11:20,114 Uh, angry young men, I guess. 137 00:11:20,244 --> 00:11:21,550 I used to be like that. 138 00:11:21,681 --> 00:11:23,204 Now I write sci-fi. 139 00:11:23,334 --> 00:11:25,162 You mature, you know. Just give it time. 140 00:11:30,864 --> 00:11:32,604 Ah... 141 00:11:32,735 --> 00:11:35,564 - Are you gonna write tonight? - Uh... 142 00:11:37,653 --> 00:11:41,135 I'll just stay in and watch a movie or get food or something. 143 00:11:41,962 --> 00:11:42,963 Okay. 144 00:11:43,093 --> 00:11:44,791 "Without even knowing it 145 00:11:44,921 --> 00:11:47,489 they had settled into their lives. 146 00:11:47,619 --> 00:11:52,407 And on a Friday afternoon, they were married at City Hall." 147 00:11:55,236 --> 00:11:57,455 They honeymooned in Paris." 148 00:12:07,814 --> 00:12:09,772 You ready? 149 00:12:13,080 --> 00:12:14,646 Yup. 150 00:12:17,824 --> 00:12:19,913 Two minutes, okay? 151 00:12:20,043 --> 00:12:22,785 - Just two more minutes. - No more antique shops. 152 00:12:28,399 --> 00:12:31,707 Mm, thank you. Put that down. 153 00:12:31,838 --> 00:12:34,144 Rory. Klondike 474. 154 00:12:34,275 --> 00:12:36,668 Repeat 47... 155 00:13:01,389 --> 00:13:04,000 What do you think of this? It's like some... 156 00:13:04,131 --> 00:13:05,697 Oh. 157 00:13:05,828 --> 00:13:08,178 That's nice. 158 00:13:08,309 --> 00:13:09,701 What do you think of it? 159 00:13:09,832 --> 00:13:11,399 I think it's old. 160 00:13:11,529 --> 00:13:13,096 I think it's great. 161 00:13:13,227 --> 00:13:15,751 I feel like if we clean it up, you can use it for work. 162 00:13:15,882 --> 00:13:18,449 - Yeah? - It's classy. 163 00:13:18,580 --> 00:13:19,842 I'm gonna get it for you. 164 00:13:40,994 --> 00:13:43,344 All mail and packages go to the assistants only. 165 00:13:43,474 --> 00:13:44,998 Hey, Irene. 166 00:13:45,128 --> 00:13:48,088 "And then, with no warning at all, 167 00:13:48,218 --> 00:13:51,047 Rory got the call that he had been waiting for." 168 00:13:51,178 --> 00:13:53,006 Thank you. Okay. 169 00:13:53,136 --> 00:13:55,225 Thank you very much. All right, okay. 170 00:13:56,792 --> 00:13:58,533 It's good. 171 00:13:58,663 --> 00:14:01,231 It's really good. I mean, it's a beautiful piece of writing, 172 00:14:01,362 --> 00:14:04,756 and the truth is that you should be very proud of yourself. 173 00:14:04,887 --> 00:14:07,411 Thank you very much. Wow. Uh... 174 00:14:07,542 --> 00:14:10,632 - I worked very hard on it. - The work shows. 175 00:14:10,762 --> 00:14:13,591 I look at you, I can't believe how young you are. 176 00:14:13,722 --> 00:14:15,332 Well... 177 00:14:15,463 --> 00:14:19,032 I have to tell you, Rory, I just see so much truth in your work. 178 00:14:19,162 --> 00:14:21,512 I-- I am... I'm so impressed. 179 00:14:21,643 --> 00:14:24,254 Wow, I can't believe this. This is-- 180 00:14:24,385 --> 00:14:25,690 Whoo. 181 00:14:25,821 --> 00:14:27,170 But unfortunately, 182 00:14:27,301 --> 00:14:29,738 the nature of the publishing business right now, 183 00:14:29,869 --> 00:14:32,523 at this particular time, is such that I don't know 184 00:14:32,654 --> 00:14:36,397 how to publish a book like this. 185 00:14:36,527 --> 00:14:40,880 Look, Rory, no one is gonna support a book like this. 186 00:14:41,010 --> 00:14:42,794 - Book like this? - From an unknown writer. 187 00:14:42,925 --> 00:14:44,274 There's just no market for it. 188 00:14:44,405 --> 00:14:47,451 Now, it's hard for any writer, under any circumstances, 189 00:14:47,582 --> 00:14:50,977 without a track record to get published. And this book-- 190 00:14:51,107 --> 00:14:53,153 I mean, it's so interior. 191 00:14:54,937 --> 00:14:57,026 Interior? What is that? 192 00:14:57,157 --> 00:15:00,334 It's artistic, it's subtle. It's... 193 00:15:00,464 --> 00:15:02,118 It's a piece of art. 194 00:15:02,249 --> 00:15:05,078 So this book, I should just shelve this and forget about it. 195 00:15:05,208 --> 00:15:07,645 I just-- I spent three years working on it. 196 00:15:07,776 --> 00:15:09,560 I'm just trying to be honest with you. 197 00:15:09,691 --> 00:15:12,607 I'm just telling you the reality of the situation. 198 00:15:12,737 --> 00:15:14,739 Have patience. 199 00:15:16,176 --> 00:15:17,655 You know, I wouldn't have brought you in here 200 00:15:17,786 --> 00:15:19,353 if I really didn't believe in you. 201 00:15:47,511 --> 00:15:49,861 You're gonna be fine. 202 00:18:33,373 --> 00:18:35,723 So we have two weeks in September. We're planning a trip. 203 00:18:35,853 --> 00:18:38,943 We think we're gonna charter-- What? We're gonna charter a boat. 204 00:18:39,074 --> 00:18:41,250 We're going to Turks, but we're gonna get a boat. 205 00:18:41,381 --> 00:18:43,122 - Like a 50-footer. - Nothing crazy. 206 00:18:43,252 --> 00:18:45,602 Great, but it's the first two weeks of September. 207 00:18:45,733 --> 00:18:47,256 - It's the beginning-- - Get a sub. 208 00:18:47,387 --> 00:18:49,040 You don't wanna miss this. 209 00:18:49,171 --> 00:18:51,260 - This is gonna be truly great. - It's gonna be amazing. 210 00:18:51,391 --> 00:18:53,610 - Breakfast, lunch, dinner. - You pull out fish, 211 00:18:53,741 --> 00:18:55,830 right out of the ocean, they cook them up. It's incredible. 212 00:18:55,960 --> 00:18:58,659 "He couldn't stop thinking about that story. 213 00:19:02,706 --> 00:19:04,186 "In those words, 214 00:19:04,317 --> 00:19:06,536 "he had been confronted by everything 215 00:19:06,667 --> 00:19:09,017 "he had ever aspired to be, 216 00:19:10,584 --> 00:19:14,283 and the reality of what he would never become." 217 00:19:14,414 --> 00:19:16,242 Buddy, what's going on with you, man? 218 00:19:16,372 --> 00:19:17,852 - You're 100 miles away. - We want you to go. 219 00:19:17,982 --> 00:19:20,115 Why don't you shut up? 220 00:19:27,775 --> 00:19:29,516 - What the hell? - Oh, don't. Just don't. 221 00:19:29,646 --> 00:19:31,779 - Don't. Please don't. - What is the matter with you? 222 00:19:31,909 --> 00:19:33,346 I can't... 223 00:19:37,567 --> 00:19:39,047 How the... 224 00:19:39,178 --> 00:19:41,136 How the hell do you end up where you are? 225 00:19:41,267 --> 00:19:43,443 How the hell does that happen? 226 00:19:44,618 --> 00:19:46,402 - Rory. - I don't know. 227 00:19:46,533 --> 00:19:49,100 I look at my life, I look at your life, I look at his life, 228 00:19:49,231 --> 00:19:51,625 I look at my father's life, I look at everybody's life, 229 00:19:51,755 --> 00:19:54,454 and I don't have a clue how anybody winds up where they do. 230 00:19:54,584 --> 00:19:56,499 - I don't know. - You don't have to know. 231 00:19:56,630 --> 00:19:59,023 - I don't know! - It's okay! You don't have to know. 232 00:19:59,154 --> 00:20:00,851 There's so much time, Rory. 233 00:20:00,982 --> 00:20:03,245 So much time? I'm talking about my goddamn life here! 234 00:20:03,376 --> 00:20:05,508 - What about your life? - It's not right! 235 00:20:06,770 --> 00:20:07,989 Nothing's right! 236 00:20:12,123 --> 00:20:14,909 Rory, how is that supposed to make me feel? 237 00:20:17,216 --> 00:20:19,870 How is that supposed to make me feel? 238 00:20:22,569 --> 00:20:25,659 I'm not who I thought I was, okay? 239 00:20:26,616 --> 00:20:27,965 I'm not. 240 00:20:28,096 --> 00:20:31,404 And I'm terrified that I never will be. 241 00:20:59,040 --> 00:21:01,216 I'm sorry. 242 00:21:34,728 --> 00:21:36,643 It's okay. 243 00:23:01,423 --> 00:23:04,470 "He didn't know why he was doing it. 244 00:23:04,600 --> 00:23:08,822 "He just wanted to feel the words pass through his fingers, 245 00:23:08,952 --> 00:23:10,824 through his mind." 246 00:23:17,396 --> 00:23:21,530 "He retyped every word as it was written on those pages. 247 00:23:25,229 --> 00:23:31,627 He didn't change a period, a comma, or even correct the spelling mistakes." 248 00:24:13,539 --> 00:24:16,455 "He needed to know what it felt like... 249 00:24:18,544 --> 00:24:20,589 "to touch it, 250 00:24:24,680 --> 00:24:27,291 if only for a moment." 251 00:24:49,400 --> 00:24:51,054 Rory, can you come here? 252 00:24:51,185 --> 00:24:52,926 What's up? 253 00:24:53,056 --> 00:24:56,756 Hey. You all right? 254 00:24:56,886 --> 00:24:59,062 What's wrong, babe? 255 00:24:59,802 --> 00:25:00,977 Hey. 256 00:25:01,108 --> 00:25:03,110 Just kiss me. 257 00:25:09,116 --> 00:25:11,466 Hey, what is it? 258 00:25:12,859 --> 00:25:14,948 - Oh, my God. - What? 259 00:25:16,384 --> 00:25:18,038 - What? - Are you pregnant? 260 00:25:18,168 --> 00:25:20,257 No, no, no. I want you to listen to me. 261 00:25:20,388 --> 00:25:24,087 I was working on the computer today, and, um... 262 00:25:24,218 --> 00:25:27,134 And I swear to you I've never gone through your things before, 263 00:25:27,264 --> 00:25:29,397 but your book was on the screen 264 00:25:29,528 --> 00:25:31,573 - and I started reading one sentence, - Oh, no, no, no. 265 00:25:31,704 --> 00:25:34,576 - then I read the second, and I couldn't put it down. - But why did you... 266 00:25:34,707 --> 00:25:39,494 Listen to me. You are everything you've always wanted to be. 267 00:25:40,843 --> 00:25:42,192 Dora, you don't under... 268 00:25:42,323 --> 00:25:44,499 Why would you keep this a secret from me? 269 00:25:44,630 --> 00:25:46,675 No, it's not a secret. 270 00:25:46,806 --> 00:25:49,983 These stories, they're so different from anything you've ever done before. 271 00:25:50,113 --> 00:25:52,115 It's as if you stopped hiding. 272 00:25:52,246 --> 00:25:56,946 They're fuller, they're truer, they're more honest. 273 00:25:57,077 --> 00:26:00,384 There are parts of you in this novel that I always knew were there, 274 00:26:00,515 --> 00:26:03,649 but I had never seen before. 275 00:26:03,779 --> 00:26:06,303 - I've never-- - What parts? 276 00:26:07,696 --> 00:26:09,829 What parts? 277 00:26:09,959 --> 00:26:11,787 All of you. 278 00:26:13,876 --> 00:26:15,878 All of you, baby. 279 00:26:19,012 --> 00:26:21,492 This has to be seen. 280 00:26:28,108 --> 00:26:29,762 Just listen to me, okay. 281 00:26:29,892 --> 00:26:35,028 You always said that all you ever wanted to do was be a good writer. 282 00:26:35,158 --> 00:26:37,247 With this, Rory, 283 00:26:37,378 --> 00:26:40,076 you're a great writer. 284 00:26:41,295 --> 00:26:44,211 Baby... 285 00:26:44,341 --> 00:26:47,562 take it to work and show it to someone. 286 00:26:50,696 --> 00:26:53,220 And if you're not gonna do it for yourself, 287 00:26:53,350 --> 00:26:55,614 then please do it for me. 288 00:27:26,514 --> 00:27:27,428 Sorry to bother you, Mr. Cutler. 289 00:27:27,558 --> 00:27:29,256 Hey, Rory. How are you today? 290 00:27:29,386 --> 00:27:31,171 - Good. - Good. 291 00:27:31,301 --> 00:27:33,434 Do you have a minute? 292 00:27:33,564 --> 00:27:36,350 Uh, I'm kind of busy here. What can I do for you? 293 00:27:36,480 --> 00:27:38,700 I've worked here for, uh, over two years. 294 00:27:38,831 --> 00:27:40,441 I haven't asked anybody for anything. 295 00:27:40,571 --> 00:27:44,097 Uh, I have a feeling you're about to ask for a thing now. 296 00:27:44,227 --> 00:27:47,187 You see, there's this novel, um... 297 00:27:47,317 --> 00:27:51,365 And I know that you get submissions all the time and you're very busy, 298 00:27:51,495 --> 00:27:54,020 but I don't want anything other than your opinion. 299 00:27:54,150 --> 00:27:56,196 I would really appreciate it. 300 00:28:26,792 --> 00:28:28,010 Rory. 301 00:28:30,012 --> 00:28:31,535 Can I help you, Mr. Cutler? 302 00:28:31,666 --> 00:28:34,060 - Come on in here for a second. - I'm in the middle of training-- 303 00:28:34,190 --> 00:28:37,324 Yeah, yeah, he'll find his way back. Shut the door. 304 00:28:41,545 --> 00:28:43,939 You know what I did last night? 305 00:28:44,070 --> 00:28:49,945 On the absolute insistence of Debra, and God knows I tried to blow her off, 306 00:28:50,076 --> 00:28:52,382 I read your novel last night. 307 00:28:53,079 --> 00:28:55,472 You did? 308 00:28:55,603 --> 00:28:58,998 Have you, uh, shown this to anyone else, anyone outside the agency? 309 00:28:59,128 --> 00:29:01,043 No, no, you're the only one that's seen it. 310 00:29:01,174 --> 00:29:03,567 I mean, uh, outside of my wife. 311 00:29:04,438 --> 00:29:05,918 What does she think? 312 00:29:06,048 --> 00:29:08,398 She was the one that insisted I show it to you. 313 00:29:08,529 --> 00:29:12,794 Well, I can't wait to meet her and thank her. 314 00:29:12,925 --> 00:29:17,756 Rory, I would very much like to represent you 315 00:29:17,886 --> 00:29:19,322 and your work. 316 00:29:20,628 --> 00:29:22,499 You've written 317 00:29:22,630 --> 00:29:25,546 a remarkable work of fiction. 318 00:29:33,728 --> 00:29:36,209 "There was no epiphany. 319 00:29:36,339 --> 00:29:39,865 "No sign from the gods to point him in the right direction. 320 00:29:48,264 --> 00:29:53,139 The book was a unanimous critical and commercial success." 321 00:29:56,795 --> 00:29:59,406 Thank you. Hi. 322 00:29:59,536 --> 00:30:03,932 "He was the darling of the New York literary world." 323 00:30:04,063 --> 00:30:08,284 The winner of this year's American Fellowship of Arts and Letters Award, 324 00:30:08,415 --> 00:30:10,547 Mr. Rory Jansen. 325 00:30:13,986 --> 00:30:17,641 Let's raise a glass here to our son, the writer. 326 00:30:17,772 --> 00:30:19,818 - To Rory. - To Rory. 327 00:30:19,948 --> 00:30:24,039 "Rory Jansen had made his choice." 328 00:30:39,925 --> 00:30:43,232 "And then he met the old man." 329 00:30:44,538 --> 00:30:48,324 That's, um, the end of part one. 330 00:30:49,978 --> 00:30:51,675 Thank you. 331 00:30:52,938 --> 00:30:54,374 Thank you for coming. 332 00:30:54,504 --> 00:30:55,462 Come along, people. 333 00:30:55,592 --> 00:30:57,551 Give the man some breathing room. 334 00:30:58,639 --> 00:30:59,814 It's his break, after all. 335 00:30:59,945 --> 00:31:02,382 Ah. Thank you. 336 00:31:04,123 --> 00:31:06,603 If you want to lie down or relax for a while, 337 00:31:06,734 --> 00:31:07,866 you know where the room is. 338 00:31:07,996 --> 00:31:10,738 I read that you liked the 2005 Rosé. 339 00:31:16,570 --> 00:31:21,792 Don't forget, Clayton, 30 minutes, so no time for foreplay. 340 00:31:21,923 --> 00:31:24,752 - I'm so sorry. - That's okay, I've read his books. 341 00:31:24,883 --> 00:31:26,275 Ah. 342 00:31:26,406 --> 00:31:28,408 So, what'd you say your name was again? 343 00:31:28,538 --> 00:31:31,106 I didn't. It's Daniella. 344 00:31:31,237 --> 00:31:32,978 Mmm. That's a beautiful name. 345 00:31:33,108 --> 00:31:35,719 Oh, can't you think of something better than that? 346 00:31:37,417 --> 00:31:41,464 - Shut up. - I have to rest my voice. 347 00:31:41,595 --> 00:31:45,120 It gets really dry when I read, and I have a whole other section. 348 00:31:45,251 --> 00:31:47,296 - Don't bullshit me. - I'm not. 349 00:31:47,427 --> 00:31:49,646 It's okay. I already know everything about you anyway. 350 00:31:49,777 --> 00:31:51,735 - Oh, really? Everything? - Mm-hmm. 351 00:31:51,866 --> 00:31:54,216 Everything. 352 00:31:54,347 --> 00:31:55,696 What do you know? 353 00:31:55,826 --> 00:31:58,481 I know you hate tomatoes. 354 00:31:59,265 --> 00:32:01,397 I know... 355 00:32:01,528 --> 00:32:06,620 Miles Davis' Kind of Blue is your favorite jazz recording. 356 00:32:06,750 --> 00:32:09,492 I know you love to watch Cheers reruns. 357 00:32:09,623 --> 00:32:12,147 And I know you took Latin for seven years 358 00:32:12,278 --> 00:32:14,933 and cheated on every single test. 359 00:32:15,063 --> 00:32:16,151 How do you know that? 360 00:32:16,282 --> 00:32:18,545 - Esquire, you said it yourself. - Ugh. 361 00:32:18,675 --> 00:32:21,548 I've got to start reading my interviews. 362 00:32:21,678 --> 00:32:23,550 So... 363 00:32:23,680 --> 00:32:26,857 what else do you know? 364 00:32:26,988 --> 00:32:32,167 I know that you've been with your wife since your freshman year of college. 365 00:32:32,298 --> 00:32:36,041 I know that you go to every single Yankees home game, 366 00:32:36,171 --> 00:32:39,783 and I know that you, Clayton Hammond, are a genius. 367 00:32:39,914 --> 00:32:42,482 - Shows how much you know. - Why's that? 368 00:32:42,612 --> 00:32:44,614 I missed two Yankee games last year. 369 00:32:44,745 --> 00:32:47,661 Oh, sorry. 370 00:32:47,791 --> 00:32:51,665 And, uh, my wife and I are, um... 371 00:32:53,406 --> 00:32:55,147 separated. 372 00:32:55,277 --> 00:32:59,368 I actually did know that, but you're wearing a ring. 373 00:33:00,587 --> 00:33:02,241 Yeah. 374 00:33:05,984 --> 00:33:07,942 So, uh, Daniella, 375 00:33:08,073 --> 00:33:11,511 how did you get backstage tonight? 376 00:33:11,641 --> 00:33:15,863 I'm a grad student at Columbia, and I begged my professor for his ticket. 377 00:33:15,994 --> 00:33:19,301 I won the Elman Fellowship, just like you. 378 00:33:19,432 --> 00:33:21,564 Mr. Hammond, they're ready for you. 379 00:33:21,695 --> 00:33:23,914 Yes, Mr. Hammond, we're ready for you. 380 00:33:28,832 --> 00:33:34,055 This is the second and, uh, final selection of the evening. 381 00:33:34,186 --> 00:33:36,884 "It was a crisp and clear autumn morning. 382 00:33:37,015 --> 00:33:41,454 The old man was dressed exactly as the day before." 383 00:33:45,023 --> 00:33:47,721 - Can I hail you a cab, sir? - I'm gonna take the bus, thanks. 384 00:33:47,851 --> 00:33:49,592 You're welcome. 385 00:33:58,558 --> 00:34:01,300 Go to Central Park? Great. 386 00:34:58,357 --> 00:35:00,750 How you doing today? 387 00:35:00,881 --> 00:35:04,014 I'm okay. How are you? 388 00:35:04,145 --> 00:35:05,494 Comme ci, comme ça. 389 00:35:05,625 --> 00:35:08,454 - You know what I mean? - Sure. 390 00:35:13,067 --> 00:35:15,548 What's that book you're reading? 391 00:35:17,376 --> 00:35:20,030 Ask the Dust, John Fante. 392 00:35:20,161 --> 00:35:23,208 Oh, how did you find him? Nobody knows him. 393 00:35:23,338 --> 00:35:24,470 You read Fante? 394 00:35:24,600 --> 00:35:26,776 Read him? I knew him. 395 00:35:28,169 --> 00:35:29,518 You knew John Fante. 396 00:35:29,649 --> 00:35:32,782 Met him in Los Angeles. 397 00:35:32,913 --> 00:35:35,568 Must have been 1958. 398 00:35:35,698 --> 00:35:37,831 He should have been someone that everybody knows. 399 00:35:37,961 --> 00:35:39,093 Yeah. 400 00:35:39,224 --> 00:35:40,660 What happened? 401 00:35:41,530 --> 00:35:43,489 Life. 402 00:35:50,104 --> 00:35:54,935 So how does it feel? 403 00:35:55,065 --> 00:35:56,937 How does what feel? 404 00:35:57,067 --> 00:36:01,724 To be somebody everybody knows? 405 00:36:01,855 --> 00:36:03,900 You know, I don't really think about it. 406 00:36:04,031 --> 00:36:06,338 Oh, come on. 407 00:36:06,468 --> 00:36:10,037 Don't bullshit an old bullshitter. 408 00:36:10,168 --> 00:36:12,170 It feels good, right? 409 00:36:13,693 --> 00:36:15,999 Feels good to have your work recognized, yeah. 410 00:36:16,130 --> 00:36:19,960 Mm, yeah, heh-heh, I'm sure it does, yeah, hm. 411 00:36:20,090 --> 00:36:22,702 Bet you get good tables in restaurants now. 412 00:36:22,832 --> 00:36:24,051 - I do. - Mm. 413 00:36:26,096 --> 00:36:28,273 Life was kind to you. 414 00:36:31,319 --> 00:36:33,060 Gods smiled when you were born. 415 00:36:33,191 --> 00:36:38,108 They looked down and they said, "Ooh, look there, that one is a writer. 416 00:36:38,239 --> 00:36:40,763 His words will be celebrated." 417 00:36:40,894 --> 00:36:44,593 I don't know if it's that grandiose. You know, I just got lucky. 418 00:36:44,724 --> 00:36:46,291 I wrote a book, and people happened to like it. 419 00:36:46,421 --> 00:36:49,903 I mean, I don't know how things happen. 420 00:36:50,033 --> 00:36:52,079 I mean, I wrote two books 421 00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:54,081 that wouldn't have gotten published if that one never did. 422 00:36:54,212 --> 00:36:57,737 Well, I'll bet they'll publish them now. 423 00:37:01,741 --> 00:37:04,004 I read your book. 424 00:37:05,223 --> 00:37:08,530 I liked it very, very much. 425 00:37:08,661 --> 00:37:10,532 Thank you. I appreciate that. 426 00:37:10,663 --> 00:37:13,361 And now forgive an old fan for a moment. 427 00:37:13,492 --> 00:37:15,450 Just indulge me. 428 00:37:17,147 --> 00:37:18,845 You wrote about Paris 429 00:37:18,975 --> 00:37:21,151 - right after the war. - Mm-hmm. 430 00:37:21,282 --> 00:37:25,068 And when I read your stories, I was right there. 431 00:37:25,199 --> 00:37:29,725 I tasted that wine, the sweetness of that wine. 432 00:37:29,856 --> 00:37:31,727 I... 433 00:37:32,902 --> 00:37:36,254 made love to the girl. 434 00:37:36,384 --> 00:37:38,647 I sat in the cafe that morning 435 00:37:38,778 --> 00:37:43,391 wondering what the future held for me. 436 00:37:43,522 --> 00:37:47,439 Or if it held anything at all for me. 437 00:37:49,658 --> 00:37:51,269 I heard... 438 00:37:52,357 --> 00:37:55,316 that child cry in the night. 439 00:37:56,709 --> 00:37:59,886 And I felt the longing 440 00:38:00,016 --> 00:38:02,889 for my home so far away. 441 00:38:06,458 --> 00:38:09,765 You are some writer, my friend. 442 00:38:10,897 --> 00:38:12,812 Thank you. 443 00:38:14,596 --> 00:38:17,860 Wow, thank you. I really do appreciate that. 444 00:38:17,991 --> 00:38:20,515 I, uh... Wow, I have to go. My wife-- 445 00:38:20,646 --> 00:38:22,430 I know, I know. 446 00:38:22,561 --> 00:38:24,867 Artists always feel uncomfortable talking about their work. 447 00:38:24,998 --> 00:38:27,435 - No, no, no. - I wonder if there's just one thing 448 00:38:27,566 --> 00:38:29,524 - you'd do for me. - Sure. 449 00:38:29,655 --> 00:38:33,180 I wondered if you'd autograph 450 00:38:33,311 --> 00:38:35,878 - my copy of your book. - Ah, of course. 451 00:38:36,009 --> 00:38:37,967 Do you have a pen? 452 00:38:39,142 --> 00:38:40,405 Oh. 453 00:38:41,884 --> 00:38:44,234 A writer without a pen. 454 00:38:44,365 --> 00:38:45,714 Well... 455 00:38:45,845 --> 00:38:47,760 Well, today's a reading day. 456 00:38:47,890 --> 00:38:49,065 Oh, yes. 457 00:38:49,196 --> 00:38:51,459 Well, I have a pen. 458 00:38:51,590 --> 00:38:53,418 So... 459 00:38:53,548 --> 00:38:55,811 I do have a story. 460 00:38:55,942 --> 00:38:57,247 A very good story. 461 00:38:57,378 --> 00:38:58,814 Now, I know you get this line all the time, 462 00:38:58,945 --> 00:39:02,165 but I think you'll like the story. Hm? 463 00:39:02,296 --> 00:39:06,431 If I was to tell you the story and you wrote it, 464 00:39:06,561 --> 00:39:08,346 well, then, maybe 465 00:39:08,476 --> 00:39:10,522 you could give me a little credit? 466 00:39:12,524 --> 00:39:15,570 Well, that wouldn't be fair, would it? 467 00:39:15,701 --> 00:39:17,659 Have a good day. 468 00:39:17,790 --> 00:39:20,532 It's about a man who wrote a book and then lost it 469 00:39:20,662 --> 00:39:23,839 and the pissant kid who found it. 470 00:39:28,931 --> 00:39:30,846 You still here? 471 00:39:39,725 --> 00:39:42,380 Do you want to hear my story? 472 00:39:44,294 --> 00:39:46,427 Or don't you have the time? 473 00:39:58,570 --> 00:40:00,093 So... 474 00:40:01,616 --> 00:40:06,229 it's 1944, and there's this 18-year-old kid, 475 00:40:06,360 --> 00:40:10,364 a soldier in the army, never saw any action. 476 00:40:10,495 --> 00:40:15,021 He was sent to Paris right at the end of the war. 477 00:40:17,632 --> 00:40:19,199 There he is, 478 00:40:19,329 --> 00:40:24,422 a dumb kid with a dumbass grin on his face. 479 00:40:24,552 --> 00:40:27,076 There he is in Paris. 480 00:40:27,207 --> 00:40:31,951 To him, it might as well have been the other side of the goddamned world. 481 00:40:34,475 --> 00:40:39,828 It was a joke that his unit was constantly drawing the worst details. 482 00:40:39,959 --> 00:40:42,701 Most of the time, they were relaying sewage pipes 483 00:40:42,831 --> 00:40:45,486 blown apart by the Germans during the occupation. 484 00:40:45,617 --> 00:40:47,314 It was god-awful work. 485 00:40:47,445 --> 00:40:49,490 Street smell. 486 00:40:49,621 --> 00:40:52,058 I miss Utah. 487 00:40:54,190 --> 00:40:56,932 Somehow the kid was happy, 488 00:40:57,063 --> 00:40:58,934 like a pig in shit. 489 00:41:01,981 --> 00:41:04,723 The guys in his unit, most of them were different 490 00:41:04,853 --> 00:41:07,639 from anybody he'd known in his neighborhood. 491 00:41:07,769 --> 00:41:12,861 They were from all over, little towns he'd never even heard of. 492 00:41:20,173 --> 00:41:21,566 Poor kid probably hit a mine. 493 00:41:21,696 --> 00:41:24,046 Let's get the body to the morgue. 494 00:41:30,792 --> 00:41:35,884 That was the only dead body he saw his whole time in the Army. 495 00:41:37,886 --> 00:41:41,194 There was this one guy in his unit real different to him, 496 00:41:41,324 --> 00:41:44,066 an intellectual, real bookworm, 497 00:41:44,197 --> 00:41:48,244 and over time, he became the boy's best friend. 498 00:41:50,203 --> 00:41:52,814 He lent him some books to read, 499 00:41:52,945 --> 00:41:57,123 the first books the kid had ever read about anything. 500 00:42:00,300 --> 00:42:02,084 For the first time 501 00:42:02,215 --> 00:42:07,742 he saw a world that was bigger than the one he'd been born into. 502 00:42:09,265 --> 00:42:12,399 And he wanted more. 503 00:42:15,663 --> 00:42:18,057 He wanted to be something more. 504 00:42:18,187 --> 00:42:20,407 - A writer. - Yeah, 505 00:42:20,538 --> 00:42:23,802 but he had no idea what the word really meant. 506 00:42:23,932 --> 00:42:27,457 Certainly didn't have a clue about how to go about it. 507 00:42:29,982 --> 00:42:31,723 - You grew up in Philadelphia? - Hmm. 508 00:42:31,853 --> 00:42:33,812 Grew up in Philly, but born in London. 509 00:42:33,942 --> 00:42:36,031 - London? - Hm. 510 00:42:47,303 --> 00:42:49,001 What did she just say? 511 00:42:49,131 --> 00:42:51,525 - What did she say? - My French is a little weak, 512 00:42:51,656 --> 00:42:54,049 but I'm pretty sure she said she loves you. 513 00:42:59,838 --> 00:43:02,710 - Go talk to her. - No. 514 00:43:02,841 --> 00:43:04,582 - Go. ha-ha. - That's not funny. 515 00:43:04,712 --> 00:43:05,844 Go talk to her. 516 00:43:05,974 --> 00:43:07,541 Come on, if you don't, I will. 517 00:43:10,544 --> 00:43:13,373 He found out sometime later that what she'd actually said was: 518 00:43:13,503 --> 00:43:16,158 "Pay your check and get the hell out of here." 519 00:43:16,289 --> 00:43:19,466 But who was he to question fate? 520 00:43:21,337 --> 00:43:24,732 He'd picked up one word of French. 521 00:43:25,428 --> 00:43:26,604 Oui. 522 00:43:26,734 --> 00:43:29,041 And she knew one word of English. 523 00:43:29,171 --> 00:43:30,956 Yes. 524 00:43:33,523 --> 00:43:36,875 It was the perfect relationship. 525 00:43:42,576 --> 00:43:44,404 What is ice cream? 526 00:43:50,715 --> 00:43:53,456 - Oh-oh. - What? 527 00:43:53,587 --> 00:43:55,850 - What? - It's cold in my head. 528 00:43:55,981 --> 00:43:58,070 - Cold in your head? - Yeah, pain. 529 00:43:58,200 --> 00:44:01,160 Go like this. Take your finger like this. 530 00:44:01,290 --> 00:44:04,076 Under your tongue. It's a little trick. It'll make it go away, okay? 531 00:44:06,600 --> 00:44:09,734 - It doesn't wanna go. - Give it a second, okay? 532 00:44:11,344 --> 00:44:13,389 Now? 533 00:44:13,520 --> 00:44:14,521 It's gone. 534 00:44:14,652 --> 00:44:16,349 Told you. 535 00:44:16,479 --> 00:44:17,785 Okay, one more. 536 00:44:34,236 --> 00:44:36,674 What happened? 537 00:44:36,804 --> 00:44:39,241 He got discharged from the Army. 538 00:45:13,841 --> 00:45:17,802 But what once was his whole world suddenly seemed... 539 00:45:17,932 --> 00:45:20,935 small. 540 00:45:21,066 --> 00:45:23,677 Nothing had changed since he'd been away. 541 00:45:26,332 --> 00:45:28,290 Except him. 542 00:45:29,335 --> 00:45:30,597 He had changed. 543 00:45:33,600 --> 00:45:35,428 For the first time in his life, 544 00:45:35,558 --> 00:45:38,474 he tried to write. 545 00:45:39,867 --> 00:45:41,260 Tried to write about Paris, 546 00:45:41,390 --> 00:45:43,610 about what he'd seen 547 00:45:43,741 --> 00:45:46,744 and how he'd felt. 548 00:45:46,874 --> 00:45:50,225 But the words just wouldn't come. 549 00:46:02,324 --> 00:46:06,459 He knew the life he wanted. 550 00:46:06,589 --> 00:46:09,854 He knew what he had to do to get it. 551 00:46:34,792 --> 00:46:38,708 The young man began his apprenticeship as a writer. 552 00:46:38,839 --> 00:46:43,801 He got a job as a journalist for a small English-language weekly. 553 00:46:43,931 --> 00:46:47,413 There were a lot of them springing up for all the expats, 554 00:46:47,543 --> 00:46:53,201 and they'd hire anyone who could string a few words together. 555 00:46:53,332 --> 00:46:56,509 It was a good place to learn. 556 00:47:35,548 --> 00:47:38,899 He married Celia two weeks later. 557 00:47:58,963 --> 00:48:04,403 Six pounds and three ounces, eyes like her mother. 558 00:48:06,622 --> 00:48:10,104 That was his moment, 559 00:48:10,235 --> 00:48:13,325 not that he knew it at the time. 560 00:48:17,851 --> 00:48:19,853 Maybe one never does. 561 00:48:40,265 --> 00:48:45,487 She used to cry so much. 562 00:48:45,618 --> 00:48:50,492 At times, he could barely think, let alone write. 563 00:48:58,892 --> 00:49:00,546 Sir? 564 00:49:03,027 --> 00:49:04,637 She was sick. 565 00:49:05,899 --> 00:49:07,292 The wife? 566 00:49:07,422 --> 00:49:09,598 My daughter. 567 00:49:16,997 --> 00:49:19,434 There was nothing he could do. 568 00:50:59,012 --> 00:51:01,058 I'll be back later. 569 00:51:26,996 --> 00:51:28,737 Celia? 570 00:51:43,491 --> 00:51:47,452 She said she'd gone home to her mother's in the country. 571 00:51:48,757 --> 00:51:51,499 Needed time to think. 572 00:51:51,630 --> 00:51:54,372 She needed to be apart. 573 00:55:02,168 --> 00:55:06,041 The words simply poured out of him. 574 00:55:09,697 --> 00:55:13,397 A stream that he could not control 575 00:55:13,527 --> 00:55:15,964 nor question where they came from. 576 00:55:16,095 --> 00:55:20,447 The words became form, the form became whole, 577 00:55:20,578 --> 00:55:24,625 and after two weeks, it was finished. 578 00:55:41,686 --> 00:55:43,252 And then? 579 00:55:43,383 --> 00:55:45,690 Then he slept. 580 00:55:45,820 --> 00:55:48,040 Dreamless sleep. 581 00:55:48,170 --> 00:55:54,176 When he woke, he cleaned the apartment and went to find his wife. 582 00:55:57,136 --> 00:56:00,400 She looked like a child to him, 583 00:56:00,531 --> 00:56:04,056 sitting in the room she grew up in. 584 00:56:07,538 --> 00:56:10,584 She begged him to go back to Paris without her. 585 00:56:10,715 --> 00:56:12,717 Just go. Go. 586 00:56:57,283 --> 00:57:00,895 A few weeks later, she finally came home. 587 00:57:22,874 --> 00:57:25,006 He was so grateful to have her home. 588 00:57:26,225 --> 00:57:28,836 He just wanted to hold her, 589 00:57:28,967 --> 00:57:31,926 see her laugh again. 590 00:57:32,057 --> 00:57:35,843 So you, um...? You read my story? 591 00:57:35,974 --> 00:57:38,106 She said she wanted to start life over. 592 00:57:38,237 --> 00:57:42,154 Said it like it would be the easiest thing in the world to do. 593 00:57:47,159 --> 00:57:49,030 No. 594 00:57:49,161 --> 00:57:52,599 I don't understand, I had it with me on the train. 595 00:57:52,730 --> 00:57:55,994 - What? - I had it with me on the train. 596 00:57:57,386 --> 00:58:00,520 But it was in a different case? 597 00:58:19,713 --> 00:58:23,282 It shouldn't have meant anything, 598 00:58:23,412 --> 00:58:27,678 but writing that story had somehow saved him. 599 00:58:30,245 --> 00:58:32,334 How could she not understand? 600 00:58:39,298 --> 00:58:41,256 You know what? 601 00:58:41,387 --> 00:58:44,651 You are not the only one who lost her. 602 00:59:08,370 --> 00:59:13,419 She left something. Listen to me, okay? 603 00:59:29,304 --> 00:59:34,309 For a time, they tried to patch things up together, 604 00:59:34,440 --> 00:59:37,051 but you can't erase the past, 605 00:59:38,357 --> 00:59:41,273 no matter how much you want to. 606 00:59:45,494 --> 00:59:50,195 And for the first time, the young man began to long for home. 607 00:59:52,806 --> 00:59:58,246 Soon the longing grew so strong he... 608 00:59:59,726 --> 01:00:01,423 He left. 609 01:00:06,167 --> 01:00:08,605 Never went back to Paris. 610 01:00:11,477 --> 01:00:14,175 Never saw Celia again. 611 01:00:20,225 --> 01:00:23,532 But after he lost those pages... 612 01:00:25,796 --> 01:00:30,670 he was never able to set down one word... 613 01:00:32,193 --> 01:00:34,326 that looked right to him. 614 01:00:37,242 --> 01:00:40,767 Maybe he was afraid of going that deep again. 615 01:00:42,900 --> 01:00:47,034 Perhaps he just lost the knack. Anyway, he stopped trying. 616 01:00:48,253 --> 01:00:51,778 And after a time... 617 01:00:51,909 --> 01:00:56,696 he found a little town up north, settled there. 618 01:00:58,263 --> 01:01:02,136 Found a kind of peace. 619 01:01:04,356 --> 01:01:06,488 How's that feel? 620 01:01:08,012 --> 01:01:09,535 Hm. 621 01:01:12,146 --> 01:01:13,670 Wait. 622 01:01:14,975 --> 01:01:16,977 It's not over yet. 623 01:01:18,762 --> 01:01:23,462 This is where it really gets interesting. 624 01:01:27,727 --> 01:01:30,730 Long after all of this faded into the past, 625 01:01:30,861 --> 01:01:35,561 the young man, who was now an old man, 626 01:01:35,692 --> 01:01:38,607 wandered into a bookstore. 627 01:01:40,827 --> 01:01:45,136 I opened the book and began to read. 628 01:01:45,266 --> 01:01:47,921 Your book. 629 01:01:48,052 --> 01:01:52,839 And the narrator was standing over a crib. 630 01:01:53,971 --> 01:01:56,887 His child was dying, 631 01:01:57,017 --> 01:02:00,325 and there was nothing he could do. 632 01:02:04,895 --> 01:02:06,418 Look... 633 01:02:08,289 --> 01:02:09,813 I... 634 01:02:12,250 --> 01:02:15,296 A misunderstanding, I... 635 01:02:15,427 --> 01:02:18,082 No, no, my friend, 636 01:02:18,212 --> 01:02:21,172 there's no misunderstanding, no. 637 01:02:22,826 --> 01:02:26,264 You can't slide out of it now. 638 01:02:28,048 --> 01:02:31,617 These are my words, 639 01:02:31,748 --> 01:02:34,359 my stories. 640 01:02:36,535 --> 01:02:37,971 Hmm? 641 01:02:39,494 --> 01:02:43,585 What the hell is a window tear anyway? 642 01:02:45,196 --> 01:02:48,329 I don't know how you did it. 643 01:02:50,462 --> 01:02:54,422 I just thought you should know the story 644 01:02:54,553 --> 01:02:58,731 behind these stories in case anyone was to ask. 645 01:03:01,734 --> 01:03:06,739 Maybe now you've got your next book. 646 01:03:35,246 --> 01:03:38,640 " After a few hours, the sun finally set 647 01:03:38,771 --> 01:03:41,774 "and Rory Jansen slowly rose, 648 01:03:41,905 --> 01:03:45,125 searching for his way home." 649 01:03:48,737 --> 01:03:49,869 Thank you. 650 01:03:54,526 --> 01:03:56,920 If you wanna know the rest of the story, 651 01:03:57,050 --> 01:03:59,009 you'll just have to buy the book. 652 01:04:01,968 --> 01:04:04,753 How much of your work is drawn from your life? 653 01:04:04,884 --> 01:04:08,627 - You've always been hesitant to talk about it. - Yes, I am hesitant. 654 01:04:08,757 --> 01:04:12,500 What I think is great about art and artists 655 01:04:12,631 --> 01:04:15,460 is that we get to ask the questions... 656 01:04:18,289 --> 01:04:21,161 even though we may never know the answers. 657 01:04:25,557 --> 01:04:27,994 Excuse me a minute. 658 01:04:29,561 --> 01:04:31,780 I wanna see where you write. 659 01:04:31,911 --> 01:04:34,261 I can assure you, it's not that exciting. 660 01:04:34,392 --> 01:04:38,135 Oh, why don't you let me be the judge of that? 661 01:04:42,182 --> 01:04:43,967 Wow. 662 01:04:44,097 --> 01:04:46,534 This place, it's, um... 663 01:04:46,665 --> 01:04:48,275 Empty. 664 01:04:48,406 --> 01:04:50,277 - Empty, yeah. - Mm. 665 01:04:50,408 --> 01:04:53,715 Somehow it's exactly the way I imagined it. 666 01:04:53,846 --> 01:04:57,719 Really? So you imagined me living in a place for eight months 667 01:04:57,850 --> 01:05:00,418 and barely unpacking a box? 668 01:05:00,548 --> 01:05:02,507 It's very elegant, Mr. Hammond. 669 01:05:02,637 --> 01:05:03,725 Oh. 670 01:05:03,856 --> 01:05:06,380 - May I take your jacket? - Yes. 671 01:05:14,562 --> 01:05:17,652 See, I told you it's not all that exciting. 672 01:05:17,783 --> 01:05:19,219 Are you kidding? 673 01:05:19,350 --> 01:05:22,483 I could write my entire dissertation on your view. 674 01:05:25,443 --> 01:05:28,272 That was hit by Babe Ruth. 675 01:05:28,402 --> 01:05:31,797 Unfortunately, it was when he was a goddamn Red Sock, 676 01:05:31,928 --> 01:05:36,106 but what can you do? 677 01:05:36,236 --> 01:05:38,412 I've got a bottle of Bordeaux downstairs 678 01:05:38,543 --> 01:05:40,980 that's just been screaming for an occasion like this. 679 01:05:41,111 --> 01:05:43,417 - You know, that sounds good. - Mm-hm. 680 01:06:42,085 --> 01:06:45,262 - Your wine. - Thank you. 681 01:06:45,392 --> 01:06:48,221 So, what should we drink to? 682 01:06:48,352 --> 01:06:51,050 Your new book, of course. 683 01:06:52,573 --> 01:06:55,359 - How about we drink to--? - Your book. 684 01:06:58,884 --> 01:07:00,973 Will you tell me something? 685 01:07:01,104 --> 01:07:03,932 What happens? 686 01:07:04,063 --> 01:07:07,153 What happens to Rory after the old man finds him? 687 01:07:07,284 --> 01:07:12,419 Why would such a beautiful, intelligent girl such as yourself 688 01:07:12,550 --> 01:07:14,987 wanna be something so silly as a writer? 689 01:07:15,118 --> 01:07:16,554 Ha. Silly? 690 01:07:16,684 --> 01:07:18,643 Don't you know words ruin everything? 691 01:07:18,773 --> 01:07:21,820 I don't believe you for a second. You love words. 692 01:07:25,084 --> 01:07:30,437 I'm young, spoiled, impetuous, and American. Humor me. 693 01:07:50,457 --> 01:07:54,026 Now, like so many of the great clichés, 694 01:07:54,157 --> 01:07:58,509 Rory Jansen decided the only thing to do was 695 01:07:58,639 --> 01:08:00,424 drink on it. 696 01:08:10,347 --> 01:08:16,004 And so he gets rip-roaring, death-defyingly drunk, 697 01:08:16,135 --> 01:08:18,268 and now he's got his nerve. 698 01:08:18,398 --> 01:08:20,487 And he starts to think. 699 01:08:20,618 --> 01:08:24,535 He allows himself to think the whole thing through. 700 01:08:30,541 --> 01:08:33,326 Hey. Guess what, I spoke to the realtor today, 701 01:08:33,457 --> 01:08:37,025 and she said that we can move in as early as the 6th. 702 01:08:37,156 --> 01:08:39,550 Isn't that awesome? 703 01:08:42,857 --> 01:08:44,903 We'll need to buy some carpets and stuff-- 704 01:08:45,033 --> 01:08:46,600 Why do you love me? 705 01:08:49,255 --> 01:08:51,344 - Dora? - Are you drunk? 706 01:08:51,475 --> 01:08:53,738 I need to know why you love me. 707 01:08:58,699 --> 01:09:01,354 Okay. Uh... 708 01:09:04,836 --> 01:09:08,448 I love you because you have beautiful eyes. 709 01:09:10,624 --> 01:09:14,498 I love you because you're serious all the time, 710 01:09:14,628 --> 01:09:18,632 but deep, deep down, you're nothing but a goofball. 711 01:09:18,763 --> 01:09:20,634 I just love you. 712 01:09:20,765 --> 01:09:23,898 Rory, what's going on? 713 01:09:24,029 --> 01:09:26,988 You really think my eyes are beautiful? 714 01:09:27,119 --> 01:09:30,296 I think your eyes are beautiful, yes. 715 01:09:30,427 --> 01:09:32,559 They're not mine. 716 01:09:35,997 --> 01:09:37,695 Okay. 717 01:09:37,825 --> 01:09:39,218 I'm a liar. 718 01:09:43,091 --> 01:09:45,311 I don't... 719 01:09:45,442 --> 01:09:46,965 What are you doing right now? 720 01:09:47,095 --> 01:09:48,358 What's wrong? 721 01:09:48,488 --> 01:09:51,099 I didn't write the book. 722 01:09:53,276 --> 01:09:54,886 What do you...? 723 01:09:55,016 --> 01:09:58,542 The book, I stole it. 724 01:09:58,672 --> 01:10:00,631 I just found it. 725 01:10:00,761 --> 01:10:04,330 I didn't even change any of it. I mean, I... 726 01:10:04,461 --> 01:10:08,856 I don't know who I was stealing it from and... 727 01:10:08,987 --> 01:10:10,858 But I knew it wasn't mine. 728 01:10:10,989 --> 01:10:12,817 Wait a minute. I'm very confused right now. 729 01:10:12,947 --> 01:10:16,081 So you didn't--? You--? You didn't write the book? 730 01:10:16,212 --> 01:10:22,261 None of it is mine, not one single word. 731 01:10:24,655 --> 01:10:26,744 I don't know what's going on. 732 01:10:28,224 --> 01:10:32,358 Uh-- It-- It was there and... 733 01:10:36,014 --> 01:10:39,626 I think I wanted so badly 734 01:10:39,757 --> 01:10:42,629 for it to have come from me... 735 01:10:46,590 --> 01:10:50,724 and then the look, the way you looked at me 736 01:10:50,855 --> 01:10:55,294 when you thought it was mine... 737 01:10:55,425 --> 01:11:01,213 And for a moment I actually convinced myself that I wrote it. 738 01:11:01,344 --> 01:11:03,302 Do you believe that? 739 01:11:03,433 --> 01:11:05,565 I could never write anything that good. I know that. 740 01:11:05,696 --> 01:11:09,656 - Okay, so then-- - You-- I mean, you said so yourself-- 741 01:11:09,787 --> 01:11:11,702 I said-- I said what? 742 01:11:11,832 --> 01:11:15,096 - It doesn't matter. - What? What did I say? 743 01:11:15,227 --> 01:11:17,882 You should've known. You did know, right? You knew-- 744 01:11:18,012 --> 01:11:20,450 - What do you mean? - You knew when you read them 745 01:11:20,580 --> 01:11:22,452 - that they weren't my words. - I knew? 746 01:11:22,582 --> 01:11:23,975 You know me so well. 747 01:11:24,105 --> 01:11:25,803 You were doing research on Paris. 748 01:11:25,933 --> 01:11:27,413 We had just gotten back from our honeymoon. 749 01:11:27,544 --> 01:11:30,373 Yeah, but you had to have known. 750 01:11:30,503 --> 01:11:32,157 What do you mean? I believed you, Rory. 751 01:11:32,288 --> 01:11:34,942 - No, you wanted to believe. - I know, I believed you! 752 01:11:35,073 --> 01:11:37,858 - You wanted to-- - I believed you! 753 01:11:51,959 --> 01:11:53,744 Dora? 754 01:12:08,454 --> 01:12:10,674 Don't touch it. 755 01:12:16,767 --> 01:12:18,595 You lied to me. 756 01:12:21,902 --> 01:12:23,861 When you... 757 01:12:23,991 --> 01:12:26,864 When you read those words, when you copied them, 758 01:12:26,994 --> 01:12:31,129 did you ever stop to think about us? 759 01:12:34,567 --> 01:12:37,222 Did you think about what this was gonna do to us? 760 01:12:37,353 --> 01:12:39,703 To you? 761 01:12:39,833 --> 01:12:42,227 Did I ever cross your mind? 762 01:12:49,016 --> 01:12:50,844 I can't be here right now. 763 01:12:50,975 --> 01:12:53,978 I'm sorry, I just can't be here. 764 01:13:10,821 --> 01:13:12,562 You really messed up. 765 01:13:15,129 --> 01:13:18,655 I think we need to think this through. 766 01:13:19,612 --> 01:13:20,831 What does that mean? 767 01:13:22,528 --> 01:13:24,878 You got the cover of the book review this Sunday. 768 01:13:25,009 --> 01:13:27,664 I didn't get the cover of this, some old man got it. 769 01:13:27,794 --> 01:13:30,057 The other book of yours I sold, did you write that? 770 01:13:30,188 --> 01:13:32,886 Of course I wrote that. But I didn't plan this. 771 01:13:33,017 --> 01:13:34,279 This isn't something that I planned. 772 01:13:34,410 --> 01:13:36,412 But the only reason why anybody ever read my stuff 773 01:13:36,542 --> 01:13:37,935 is because of this book. 774 01:13:38,849 --> 01:13:41,112 You don't want this. 775 01:13:41,242 --> 01:13:44,637 Everything you're saying you want, you don't want it. 776 01:13:45,812 --> 01:13:47,466 Just take my name off the book. 777 01:13:47,597 --> 01:13:51,949 And what do you think is gonna happen? 778 01:13:52,079 --> 01:13:54,691 Do you think they're gonna give you a hall pass? 779 01:13:54,821 --> 01:13:56,867 The media? The press? They're gonna crucify you. 780 01:13:56,997 --> 01:13:59,957 And my ass is out there on the line with you. 781 01:14:02,568 --> 01:14:05,179 You wanna pay this man off your advance, 782 01:14:05,310 --> 01:14:07,355 that's the right thing to do. 783 01:14:07,486 --> 01:14:09,314 You wanna cut him into the movie rights, fine. 784 01:14:09,445 --> 01:14:12,970 You wanna buy him a house, a car, a boat? 785 01:14:13,100 --> 01:14:15,189 But don't screw yourself for the rest of your life 786 01:14:15,320 --> 01:14:18,454 over one stupid mistake. And don't you screw me! 787 01:14:23,154 --> 01:14:26,374 You know, we can find him for you, if that's what you really want, but... 788 01:14:28,420 --> 01:14:31,902 Trust me, this isn't the first time an author's done something like this. 789 01:14:32,032 --> 01:14:34,252 Don't do that. 790 01:14:34,382 --> 01:14:36,123 You may not believe me now... 791 01:14:38,517 --> 01:14:40,954 but you will thank me later. 792 01:14:44,741 --> 01:14:47,091 My book, the one you sold... 793 01:14:51,574 --> 01:14:53,314 is it as good as this book? 794 01:14:56,361 --> 01:14:58,537 Tell me the truth, Joe. 795 01:15:01,758 --> 01:15:03,020 Thank you. 796 01:15:58,597 --> 01:16:00,556 How are you doing today? 797 01:16:14,178 --> 01:16:16,833 What type of plant is that? 798 01:16:16,963 --> 01:16:18,704 Plectranthus. 799 01:16:18,835 --> 01:16:21,098 Swedish ivy. 800 01:16:22,186 --> 01:16:23,840 It's nice. 801 01:16:26,843 --> 01:16:31,761 Did you come up here just to bullshit about plants? 802 01:16:33,850 --> 01:16:35,591 I wanna fix this. 803 01:16:36,548 --> 01:16:40,291 There's nothing to fix. 804 01:16:40,421 --> 01:16:45,992 You just go live the life you made for yourself. 805 01:16:46,123 --> 01:16:49,430 If you didn't want anything, why did you come find me and tell me? 806 01:16:49,561 --> 01:16:51,911 It couldn't be just to torture me. 807 01:16:53,870 --> 01:16:56,220 You don't even know who I am. 808 01:16:56,350 --> 01:16:59,353 You don't know how, you don't know why. 809 01:16:59,484 --> 01:17:02,530 I just... 810 01:17:02,661 --> 01:17:06,012 thought you should know, that's all. 811 01:17:08,058 --> 01:17:11,496 Do you think you can just steal part of my life? Hmm? 812 01:17:11,627 --> 01:17:13,324 Any man's life? 813 01:17:13,454 --> 01:17:15,674 Take it as your own 814 01:17:15,805 --> 01:17:17,981 and expect there'd be no price to pay? 815 01:17:18,111 --> 01:17:22,768 No. Don't you understand? This is why I'm here. 816 01:17:22,899 --> 01:17:26,380 Put that back in your pocket or I'll take you out back and kick the shit out of you. 817 01:17:26,511 --> 01:17:28,861 This is not a payoff. This is all I could get out right now, 818 01:17:28,992 --> 01:17:31,168 but it's all yours. I'm gonna take my name off the book. 819 01:17:31,298 --> 01:17:33,910 I'm gonna tell everybody the truth. 820 01:17:34,040 --> 01:17:37,348 Then you're even more of a fool than I thought you were. 821 01:17:37,478 --> 01:17:41,091 - What is all this about then? - What is it about? 822 01:17:42,005 --> 01:17:44,442 It's about my life. 823 01:17:44,572 --> 01:17:48,011 It's about my wife, about my child. 824 01:17:48,141 --> 01:17:52,276 It's about the joy and the pain that gave birth to those words. 825 01:17:54,800 --> 01:17:58,282 You take those words, you take the pain. 826 01:18:04,723 --> 01:18:10,207 Now, why don't you buy a plant with that money? 827 01:18:10,337 --> 01:18:13,079 Here, a Plectranthus, since you love them so much. 828 01:18:13,210 --> 01:18:17,431 You take your plant and your money and you get out of here. Get out of here. Go on. 829 01:18:18,606 --> 01:18:20,260 Hey, I wanna make things right. 830 01:18:20,391 --> 01:18:22,349 You can't just make things right. 831 01:18:22,480 --> 01:18:24,351 Things are just things. 832 01:18:24,482 --> 01:18:28,616 You understand? No matter how you try and martyr yourself. 833 01:18:33,230 --> 01:18:35,798 I've got work to do. This place doesn't run itself. 834 01:18:35,928 --> 01:18:38,583 Sir, sir. Please. Sir. 835 01:18:40,106 --> 01:18:41,368 Please. 836 01:18:57,820 --> 01:19:00,648 I did see her one more time. 837 01:19:01,649 --> 01:19:03,303 You did? 838 01:19:07,264 --> 01:19:11,094 I was on my way to work. 839 01:20:26,386 --> 01:20:28,649 Over all those years, 840 01:20:31,000 --> 01:20:33,785 I thought about her every day. 841 01:20:36,875 --> 01:20:40,836 Broken because of what I did to her. 842 01:20:40,966 --> 01:20:45,101 And then all of a sudden, there she was. 843 01:20:52,456 --> 01:20:54,458 She seemed happy. 844 01:20:59,289 --> 01:21:04,947 Well, if I was to tell you that realization didn't cause me pain, I'd be lying. 845 01:21:05,077 --> 01:21:07,819 But, in some ways, it helped me. 846 01:21:07,950 --> 01:21:10,474 Helped me turn a corner. 847 01:21:12,606 --> 01:21:17,437 Pick up again without looking back all the time. 848 01:21:22,268 --> 01:21:26,838 Ah, you think I ruined my life because I never wrote again. 849 01:21:26,969 --> 01:21:31,756 - Just because I lost a book of stories. - No, I just... 850 01:21:31,887 --> 01:21:33,976 God, you had so much more to do. 851 01:21:34,106 --> 01:21:37,327 Oh, I've done enough. Believe me. 852 01:21:37,457 --> 01:21:39,720 I've done what I can the best that I can. 853 01:21:39,851 --> 01:21:41,853 That's all you can ask of a person. 854 01:21:41,984 --> 01:21:43,942 No, 855 01:21:44,073 --> 01:21:47,119 my tragedy was that I loved words 856 01:21:47,250 --> 01:21:52,168 more than I loved the woman who inspired me to write them. 857 01:21:56,955 --> 01:22:01,525 - You wanna do something for me? - Anything at all. 858 01:22:01,655 --> 01:22:04,528 Walk away, don't look back. 859 01:22:09,054 --> 01:22:12,057 We all make choices in life. 860 01:22:12,188 --> 01:22:14,973 The hard thing is to live with them. 861 01:22:17,976 --> 01:22:21,414 And there ain't nobody can help you with that. 862 01:22:23,373 --> 01:22:25,114 Go on. 863 01:22:30,293 --> 01:22:31,685 Sir? 864 01:22:38,214 --> 01:22:40,477 I do love your book. 865 01:23:16,426 --> 01:23:20,908 Finally, Rory Jansen knew what he had to do. 866 01:23:22,693 --> 01:23:25,174 The Window Tears 867 01:23:25,304 --> 01:23:27,437 by Rory Jansen. 868 01:23:38,839 --> 01:23:40,232 And the old man? 869 01:23:40,363 --> 01:23:44,367 A few weeks after Rory went to visit him, 870 01:23:44,497 --> 01:23:46,195 the old man died. 871 01:23:46,325 --> 01:23:49,720 And the secret died with him. 872 01:24:29,107 --> 01:24:34,591 Whatever he had to do, whatever he had to lose, he would seal it off. 873 01:24:37,898 --> 01:24:43,513 It was as if by locking off the secret of one man's life forever, 874 01:24:43,643 --> 01:24:50,433 he had unveiled another much deeper and darker secret within himself. 875 01:25:00,399 --> 01:25:03,707 And that's it. The end. 876 01:25:03,837 --> 01:25:05,361 Poof. 877 01:25:05,491 --> 01:25:08,755 No moral, no incredible gain of knowledge, 878 01:25:08,886 --> 01:25:13,369 other than the belief that one can, after making a terrible mistake in life, 879 01:25:13,499 --> 01:25:18,330 continue to live and perhaps even live well. 880 01:25:22,726 --> 01:25:24,380 Bullshit. 881 01:25:27,557 --> 01:25:30,255 Everyone has to sleep at night. 882 01:25:30,386 --> 01:25:33,606 What really happened, Clay, after he tells himself all that? 883 01:25:44,139 --> 01:25:48,839 - What happens to Rory? - I already told you. 884 01:25:48,969 --> 01:25:53,060 He goes on. He lives, he writes, as well as he can, 885 01:25:53,191 --> 01:25:55,889 he's a big success. 886 01:25:56,020 --> 01:25:59,415 I'm not talking about the book. You're just avoiding. Tell me the truth. 887 01:26:04,333 --> 01:26:06,161 Come on, Clay... 888 01:26:08,032 --> 01:26:10,034 Look, why don't you tell me? 889 01:26:10,165 --> 01:26:13,124 - What? - I wanna know what you think. 890 01:26:13,255 --> 01:26:15,039 You got yourself in here, you got me talking. 891 01:26:15,170 --> 01:26:18,521 It's your turn to talk. I wanna know what you think. 892 01:26:19,957 --> 01:26:22,220 - I... - No, no, no. 893 01:26:22,351 --> 01:26:24,396 You tell me what happens to Rory and Dora. 894 01:26:39,716 --> 01:26:41,370 He's fucked. 895 01:26:44,590 --> 01:26:46,157 Wait. 896 01:26:47,898 --> 01:26:49,552 That's a good start. 897 01:26:51,293 --> 01:26:53,991 Now go on. 898 01:26:54,121 --> 01:26:58,822 Maybe he can forget, maybe he can write, create, 899 01:26:58,952 --> 01:27:01,607 but it doesn't matter because he'll never, ever believe it. 900 01:27:01,738 --> 01:27:04,871 He's robbed himself of the chance to find out. 901 01:27:05,002 --> 01:27:06,917 Not bad. 902 01:27:07,047 --> 01:27:09,789 Or maybe he can't write, although he's been able to fool a few people. 903 01:27:09,920 --> 01:27:12,139 Even better. 904 01:27:12,270 --> 01:27:14,838 Maybe his marriage falls apart because for him and his wife to look at one another 905 01:27:14,968 --> 01:27:17,623 is for them to look at the truth. 906 01:27:17,754 --> 01:27:19,277 Maybe when he goes in public, 907 01:27:19,408 --> 01:27:22,280 he can wear that mask of confidence and sophistication, 908 01:27:22,411 --> 01:27:25,675 but back when he's alone late at night, he can't sleep, 909 01:27:25,805 --> 01:27:30,636 because when he closes his eyes he still sees the face of that old man. 910 01:27:37,121 --> 01:27:38,731 Maybe... 911 01:27:38,862 --> 01:27:41,430 he sees his own face, 912 01:27:41,560 --> 01:27:45,129 and the old man is just a story he made up. 913 01:27:50,221 --> 01:27:55,966 At some point, you have to choose between life and fiction. 914 01:27:56,096 --> 01:28:00,231 The two are very close, but they never actually touch. 915 01:28:00,362 --> 01:28:04,322 They're two very, very different things. 916 01:28:26,475 --> 01:28:27,693 What is it? 917 01:28:32,872 --> 01:28:34,831 I, um... 918 01:28:34,961 --> 01:28:36,615 You never let her go. 919 01:28:42,360 --> 01:28:44,057 You should leave. 920 01:28:44,188 --> 01:28:46,930 Is that what you really want, Clay? 921 01:28:49,498 --> 01:28:51,761 Life or fiction? 922 01:28:54,285 --> 01:28:55,852 Which do you choose? 923 01:29:01,684 --> 01:29:04,382 Remember the first time we met? 924 01:29:04,513 --> 01:29:05,949 Remembering the quiet? 925 01:29:09,779 --> 01:29:11,911 You had on that shirt... 926 01:29:12,042 --> 01:29:17,700 The one you never took off. The one with the stripes and the hole in the elbow. 927 01:29:17,830 --> 01:29:19,832 I looked at you and I had a flash. 928 01:29:19,963 --> 01:29:23,009 That never happened with any guy. 929 01:29:27,710 --> 01:29:30,016 I jumped ahead and I saw our lives together. 930 01:29:45,075 --> 01:29:46,642 We're gonna be fine.